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And the offers start to role in... [Jun. 27th, 2008|12:52 pm]
[mood | energetic]

The BIG movie is inches away from being a go and now the offers for other work start to trickle in at a steadily increasing pace.  So perhaps there will be time to do a western or 2 before we leave for Serbia. 

Evilbob you must call me, we must get together, there are large forces at work and some day soon I am going to need your help.  It might be second unit stuff at first but the door is being wedged open and I plan on dragging you through it with me.

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Well Damn [Jun. 25th, 2008|10:00 am]
[mood | disappointed]

No Dance With Dragon in 2008, any hope of that is officially dead...


and there was much wailing and gnashing of teeth

8 years of cliff hanger is going to turn into 9.  I'm tired of speculating on who Coldhands is, who Jons parents are, and all the other 15 gillion crackpot theories.  Oh well, I guess if its not done, its not ready to be done.
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All right everybody its time... [Jun. 18th, 2008|10:18 am]

Please respond to this post your assistance is required.


Tell me what your favorite action sequence is.  Any movie, or TV show, just tell me what the show was and a general description of how it goes down.

Thanks

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File this under things NOT to do... [Jun. 6th, 2008|04:43 pm]

persistently poke the sociopath with a stick

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........... [May. 30th, 2008|12:45 pm]
[mood | amused]

Really?



REALLY!?!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha



that is all...

Happiness is mandatory, the computer is your friend 
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[May. 12th, 2008|05:28 pm]
 Fuck you... and you and you, You're cool,  and most of all Fuck you


...end transmissions...
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Once more unto the breach... [Mar. 27th, 2008|08:45 am]
[Current Location |Office Space]
[mood | morose]
[music |Momentary Lapse of Reason]

She lay, my hands resting near her towel covered eye, keeping her head immobile.  The pink fluid, relief giving and necessary, was pushed into her needy vein. 1cc, 2cc...  one last raged breath, the breath one who has fought the good fight, given all they had, and now seeks to lay their weary head to rest.  Her lips relax and begin the slow creep away from her teeth, and see/feel her soul move on.  She has reached the clearing at the end of the path.  The unending field of green where she can romp with Judd, Bobby, Oden and Sam.  

Farewell Cora, we were well-met
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I got a letter, it made me laugh... in a sad way [Feb. 18th, 2008|02:04 pm]
[mood | amused]

I love it when self-styled intellectuals are narrow-minded.  I love it when self-proclaimed Christians are judgemental of others and cast dispersions about the actions of others.  Then, these same people have the gaul to degrade others for hypocrisy.  Its amazingly sad.  SOme say I should be offended, but I'm not.  Some say I should not care, but I do.  I shouldn't expect him to act like an adult, but I do.  Still to this day I beleive the best of him.  I didn't beat the shit out of him that time when I should have.  His wife wouldn't let me.  I didn't belittle him or think less of him when he was burned out and being a down right shit about that one group.  *sigh*

I have checked witha few others, and all agree that it is best summed up by a mutual friend when they said, "That's IT!  (He) is actually a teenaged lesbian stuck in a pathetic loser's body!!!"

Not sure I agree, but it did make me smile. 

If you ever read this.  Your assumptions are incorrect.  The conclusions you have drawn are erroneous and illogical. 
But I will respect you wishes and never attempt to make any sort of contact with you again.  If you ever decide to leave Never-Never Land I will still be your friend.
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why not, Evil did it, and he still talks to me... [Jan. 9th, 2008|09:57 am]
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Cronos_Rants: Speaking of balance... [Dec. 17th, 2007|03:57 pm]
What seems more balanced?

A friend of many years does something you don't agree with or approve of or whatever.  Do you...

1) Tell that friend what you feel they have done incorrectly and offer constructive criticism to help them avoid making the same mistake again.

or

2) Get pissed at them, do your best to pretend they don't exist, never tell them why you are pissed, avoid any sort of communication even in extreme circumstances, and think less of people who still associate with them.


hmmmm...
which seems like the more balanced approach...


or maybe some people enjoy being self-righteous hipocrits 
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Horses... [Nov. 19th, 2007|12:58 pm]
[Current Location |Cubical of Death]
[mood | blah]
[music |Momentary Lapse of Reason]

lesson #3 happened on Sunday.  All 3 are coming along faster than I anticipated.  Oakie should some signs of not hating his job.  Cory again displayed that she is will to try trusting me not to beat her.  My baby girl Hope, was a bit on the willful side though.  She is getting to that age where Mares start to feel the wild hair in their ass.  I had hoped to involve Tim and Chris in this process, as both expressed deep interest and said they would be there.  3 lessons down, zero attendance.  Oh well, it's not necessary for them to be there, but it could have given them a lot of insight in the working with horses.  Bob II wants the usual out of the joust.  So barring Matt, Tim, Chris or I come up with some outragious amazing show idea, it will be statis quo this year.  To Knights meet to do combat.  A good guy, a bad guy, a winner and a loser, the breaking of props, some intentionally.  Brian had expressed an interest in coming out and learning as well.  That would be great if we could get a Tim vs. Brian / Chris joust ready for fair, but we shall see.  

On a happy note, I got to see my little sister on Saturday night.  She is the shit, and I love her to death.  

The AOA has an opportunity to help out the Oklahoma Cat Club this weekend.  Hopefully I'll get at least 5 or 6 volunteers to go with me to earn the Order a little cash.  

Work sucks out my soul everyday.  The John was not made for the pushing of paper.   Other opportunities have presented themselves on the horizon and in short order the John might be moving far far away.  But there are about 500 hoops to jump through to make those a reality. 

Keep your fingers crossed kids, maybe the Joust will rock this year. 

PS: if you have ideas that could help the joust in the rockingness category please let me know.

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The real reason [Nov. 12th, 2007|01:22 pm]
[mood | contemplative]

As some people, I'm sure, have the wrong impression as to why I turned down the role offered to me for the AOA's 2008 Chess Board, I thought I would clarify my position.

For those of you who think I wsa pissy for not getting cast in the role I auditioned for:  Wrong answer Steve

In all the years I have been doing this, there were only 2 times that I really cared about getting a specific role.  This was not one of them.

I auditioned only because there would be an opportunity to have a fight with my long time friend and brother, Evil Bob.  Being that he one of the few people who have done this longer than I have, he would bring a wealth of talent, knowledge and ability to offer the Order.  He had his heart set on getting a certain role, and short of that would have stuck around as long as we had a fight together.  I to would have been happy in any role on the board if had involved a fight with him.  I made these wishes known and I thought that after 20 or so years of service it was completely reasonable.  They were ignored.  Oh well, no biggy, its an opportunity lost.

But still, this was only a mild annoience, and I would have still stayed and done my assigned role. 

What up set me to no end was the erosion of necessary authority invested in the fight director for the chess board.  People are under the misunderstanding that the Chessboard is the perview of the drama guild.  Fot those of you with this misconception, let me clarify.

On any given day of faire, past the first, second or maybe, if there has been a lot of work on projection, the third row, no one in the audience can here the dialogue.  More to the point 90% of the audience doesn't even care about it.  Not to belittle the hard work put in by everyone on making every chessboard a gripping story, but the simple fact of the matter is that most of the audience doesn't care.  90% of them are there to see the fights.  If you don't beleive this, wait around a few years and see what random audience people remember about chessboards of the past.  Is it the story line, how they were moved by the drama or humor or moral lesson.  Nope.  Its whichever fight was the most spectacular.  I have seen all kinds of chessboards all across the country and there is one thing I know; the concept of the chessboard is just a convenient way to have a bunch of fights without it being a Pokeman battle.  "Sir Lancelot! I choose you!!!"

The Dramatic aspect is very important.  It is a key component, and gives all of our members something to strive for and be a part of.  It allows people with acting experience the chance to stretch themselves, and those with none to experience it for the first time.   That kind of teaching and performance is vital to the Dream that is the AOA.

However, with all this considered, it is still the fights which leave a lasting impression and determine whether or not a particular years, chessboard is a success or failure.  For this to work, the fight director is empowered with the authority to make decision about key fighting roles, so that pivotal fights can be as good as possible.  Whether or not, this works with the Directors vision is a secondary consideration.  Just as whether or not a person is in exactly the right age range, or might be the best actor for the part.  As I understand it, and I could be wrong as I was not at the top secret meeting, and only have the word of two attendees to go on, the Master of Arms made his needs known and he was ignored and / or run over, and did not receive the support from the King to bring the Drama guild back to reality.  

It is this lose of checks and balances that upset me so much.  To see my brother Tim put in a position where is authority is ignored and not to receive the support of the King was ludicris, and a sure fire way to make this and future chessboards sub-par.  If this is a presedent being set for how thing will be run in the future, I won't ever audition for a chessboard again, and as it stands, I won't be part of this one either.  

Oh well, it leaves me with more time to make a joust show that is safe.  



ps: Spell Check not used, because I don't really care.

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[Sep. 6th, 2007|01:09 pm]
 

1. Where is the last place you held hands?
Not sure

2. If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
I wouldn't be drafted, they won't even take me if I volunteer

3. Do you sleep with the TV on?
some times

4. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
why dirt another glass?

5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?
knoe

6. What is your longest fight with one of your friends?
I didn't realize I needed to keep score

7. Are you a fast typer?
It depends on the day

8. Are you afraid of the dark?
No

9. Do you like someone right now?
Yes

10. What ended your last relationship?
an in ability to affectivly communicate our needs

*what happened to 11?*
I have no knowledge of the events surrounding the alleged dissappearance of #11

12. Do you knock on wood?
Yes

13. Are you drinking anything right now?
the warm fuzzy reassurance of intense intestinal pain

14. Do you think you’re smart?
I have been told I am

15. Have you ever eaten a bug?
Yes, some of them are tasty, others, not so much

16. Do you miss someone right now?
Yes

17. What do you want for Christmas?
a winning ticket for the Powerball Jackpot

18. Do you know the muffin man?
Yes he actually lives on Barbour street in Norman

19. Do you talk in your sleep?
yes among other things

20. Do you remember your 1st crush?
actually no

21. Have you ever flown a kite?
Yes

22. When was the last time that you went swimming and where?
unknown

23. Do you consider yourself successful?
in general yes, but by my own standards I am a complete failure

24. How many people are on your contact list of your cell phone?
67

25. Have you ever asked for a horse?
at times I have prayed for one 

26. Plans for 2MORROW?
work, work sleep

27. What did you do this past weekend?
Rehearsed a fight show

28. Miss being at school right now?
Yes, I will be going back soon.  If all goes as planned

29. When’s the last time you told someone you loved them?
Not sure, not really good with that whole expressing emotions thing

30. Do you want to be single?
Single, No, Happy Yes

32. Who’s your hero?
I have had many heroes, but right now I have been instructed to work on being my own hero 

33. Have you ever been suspended/expelled from school.
Yes, there was an occurance involving a friend called Bear adn some caffeine pills

34. What are you looking forward to?
Not being at work 

35. If you could be stranded with one person for 24 hours, who would it be?
Edward, The Black Prince  


37. Have you ever eaten dog food?
Not to my knowledge

38. Can you handle the truth?
Yes

39. Do you like green eggs and ham?
Yes, I would eat them off a fox, I would eat them off her box

40. What 3 things do you always bring with you to places?.
the voices in my head

41. Any cool scars?
When you are a grand master in the giant scar club, they start to lose their cool factor 

42. Are you missing in action?
Quite often 

44. What’s your deepest secret?
not something to be shared on LJ

45. How often do you talk on the phone?
as often as I have to

46. Do you believe in love?
Yes, its like Duct Tape

47. Is there something you want that you can’t have?
X-ray vision, for poker playing purposes 

48. Four things about the preferred sex that you first notice?
1- Attitude
2- Smile
3- Laugh
4- Body Type

49. When was your last time you cried?
Can't remember

50. Who did you last hug?
My mother

51. Do you get along with your family?
It depends on the day 

52. Where is your phone?
my pocket 

53. What was the last thing you ate?'
Crackers

54. Favorite color?
Blue, then Black

55. Last movie you saw?
I Spit on Your Grave aka Day of the Woman

56. What song are you listening to?
No music in the office

57. What do you want?
to be well

58. Favorite car?
Dodge Tomahawk, not a car

59. What T.V. show are you watching?
That would require receiving TV channels 

60. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Fred, a Client, from Poon Boyz Express

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A simple statement of fact [Sep. 5th, 2007|01:18 pm]
[mood | aggravated]

If you think you know but haven't asked me, you don't.  So shut the fuck up, or I will make it my goal to destroy your life in every way possible.  Also, people, please for the love all that is good in this world, consider the source before you choose to believe.  




PS: It has become very clear that some friends, are not friends at all.  Some "friends" will get what they deserve...
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You would think... [Aug. 30th, 2007|09:56 am]
that management would want the guy puking at his desk to go home.  Not if you are on probation though.  So here I sit, having emptied my trash can twice, still feeling like ass, being nigh-completely unproductive.  YAY!!! for pig headed strict rule following.  
Oh well, at least my fever broke last night / ass early this morning and so far poker is paying for theoropy, so I guess I can't complain too much...  etc

end of random ramblings 
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Psychiatrists are funny people too... [Aug. 22nd, 2007|04:59 pm]

they are full of all sorts of leading questions.  trained to get you to look at and answer the things you brain has been hiding from you.  sometimes you don't even know you needed to ask the question, let alone find the answer.  they are also full of cute phrases like, "persistant cycle of self destructive behavior".   Why does it seem I find something great in my life and then allow events to spiral out of control so as to ruin it? Who knows?  I guess I have to accept the fact that I suck as a person.   Try to find the answers, and seek to remedy the problems I have created.  But I am weak, pathetic and depressed. boohoo.  





PS: this is an excersize in cathardic writing, not a self appointed pity party.  comment if you like, but know that I have professional help on my side, and eventual all will be well.  How? You may ask.  I don't know.  Its a mystery.

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I know that... [May. 4th, 2007|04:42 pm]
[mood | amused]

the book says that your body is a temple but...

http://www.break.com/pictures/may2gal45.html

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It is done... [Apr. 30th, 2007|11:47 pm]
[Current Location |Home]
[mood | morose]
[music |The River]

For good or for ill, my time is over.  Since August of '96 I had an all consuming purpose.  Ever day was spent thinking, forming plans, initiating plots.  There were plans put into effect that took 5 years or more to come to fruition.  The foils of Erasmus and Machiavelli served me well.  Between there ideas on leadership and long term effectiveness, and the lessons learned serving all but one king, I was able to steer a course for the group I loved back to a better place.  What happened to set things off course need not be gone into, but now that my time is done I will say that most of the failure was within the group, not an individual.  There were dark times and bright spots.  History repeated itself, and there was more Bullshit, with asking some one to leave.  To my brothers whom I failed in those times, I am more sorry than I can ever say.  I had to find a way to stay.  No matter what.  I made a promise.  The same promise, to more than one person.  Things had to be set to right before I could lay down my burden.  At its core that group is a beautiful thing, and that inner beauty had to be brought back to the forefront.  I can remember when someone was asked to leave.  Even though it meant losing someone else.  One of the greatest assets that the group had ever had.  But even when its some one as valued as Bruce, the rules must be upheld.  He did nothing wrong, but there was no way to not lose him in the process.  "To lead means some times you must place you friendships second, and think of the greater good, the well being of the whole."  It was a hard lesson to learn, and it was even harder to adhere to it.  
     I was amazed to find my exact feelings written down by GRRM, in his oath which is taken by the brothers of the Night's Watch.  If you have not read his books, buy or borrow a copy of A Game of Thrones.  
The vow of the Night's Watch
"Hear my words, and bear witness to my vow.  Night gathers, and now my watch begins.  It shall not end until my death.  I shall take no wife, hold no lands, father no children.  I shall wear no crowns and win no glory.  I shall live and die at my post."  
(And here is the part that mirrored my feelings)
"I am the sword in the darkness.  I am the watcher on the walls.  I am the fire that burns against the cold, the light that brings the dawn, the horn that wakes the sleeper, the shield that guards the realms of men.  I pledge my life and honor to the Night's Watch, for this night and all the nights to come."
     I started with such verve and vigor.  So much passion, vision and desire,  but by the end I felt as though my sword was dulled, my eyes were dim, I had no more fuel for the fire in my heart.  I did not want the sun to rise, nor to wake the sleepers.  I could no longer protect the weak, the helpless, the suffering and the oppressed.  I had lost my life once, and some judge that I lost my honor as well.  I was not a great king, but that was never my intent.  I simply wanted to pass it on, as strong in heart, if not in body, as it was when first I was asked to care for it.  On a drive in that Paseo, I was asked if I would take it as my charge.  If I would one day lead and shepherd it.  I wanted to rebuild it and pass it on.  I may not have been worshiped like a Hero, or brought in the most money, but I know I changed some lives for the better.  


I also know there was one who I failed.  I was not there to help him.  Though I don't know if my help was desired or would have been accepted.  I will regret it, and remember it always as one of the greatest failures of my life.  I am sorry, though I have been told my words mean not but shit to you, I am sorry. 
 
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MY marriage age is... 38, oh good I have some time [Mar. 22nd, 2007|04:23 pm]
[mood | calm]

You know when your birthday is, but how old should you really be? (just put an x next to the things that apply to you)


[x] know how to make a pot of coffee.
[] I keep track of dates using a calender.
[]I own more than one credit card.
[X] I know how to change the oil in my dads car.
[X] I do my own laundry.
[] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself
[x] I think politics are exciting.
[X] I balance my checkbook.
[x] My parents have better things to say than my friends.

total: 7

[X] I show up for school/college/work every day early.
[] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[] I've never gotten a detention.
[] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[] I have never gotten completely trashed.
[x] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x]I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[X] I drink coffee at least once a week.

total: 6

[x] I know how to do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 10 in another language.
[] When I say I'm going to do something I do it.
[X] My parents trust me.
[x] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[x] I remember to water the plants.
[X] I study when I have to.
[x] I pay attention at school/college.[sometimes]


total: 9

[x] I can spell 'experience' without looking it up
[X] I work out on a regular basis.
[] I clean up my own mess.
[] The people at Starbucks know me by name
[] my favorite kind of food is take out.
[X] I have gained weight since middle/high school.
[x] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[X] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[X] I can type quickly.


total: 7

[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[x] I have been to a Tupperware party.
[x] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[x] I have more bills than I can pay.
[X] Most/All of my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[x] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.

total:9

add up all the numbers and repost this as: "MY marriage age is..."
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Just because Em asked me too [Mar. 14th, 2007|11:20 am]
YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW YOU...I want to know 33 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine...You're on my list, so I wanna know you better!

1. Can you cook?

2. What was your dream growing up?

3. What talent do you wish you had?

4. Favorite place?

5. Favorite vegetable?

5. The last book you read?

7. What zodiac sign are you?

8. Any Tattoos and / or Piercings?

9. Worst Habit?

10. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?

11. What is your favourite sport?

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?

13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15. Tell me one weird fact about you:

16. Do you have any pets?

17. Do you know how to do the Macarena?

18. What time is it where you are now?

19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22. What colour eyes do you have?

23. Ever been arrested?

24. Bottle or Draft?

25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?

26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?

27. Which is your favourite bar to hang at?

28. Do you believe in ghosts?

29. Favourite thing to do in your spare time?

30. Do you swear a lot?

31. Biggest pet peeve?

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?

33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
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